This quickly brought to light the tangible things that are happening that bring me anxiety and dis-rest. Seeing these written down on paper, actually diminished the shame.   As soon as I had the  wherewithal to identify my opportunities for growth; I felt a graceful and peaceful sense of ease. I felt confidence that I have the capacity, tools, support from the Divine, and community to own, work through, and rise above some areas of my life that are actual real-time areas of challenge.

The contrast of the false monkey-mind worry I experience when I am in FEAR; compared to the actual opportunities for growth makes me think of the serenity prayer:

“God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”

Wishing you all Love, Light, Confidence, and Trust,

Carolyn Jean

Letting go of F.E.A.R

It is said in many twelve step communities that the word "FEAR" is an acronym: False Evidence Appearing Real.

Yesterday before I went into my therapy session I wrote down the things I wanted to bring up and I realized how much fear I was in. Attracting an ideal living situation and financial fears were among the many things on my list. As I saw the list I realized that most of the stuff I was worried about was NOT even real, it was a worry of what could happen. 

In an inspired moment of silliness and grace I wrote at the top of a new page the word: REAR, Real Evidence Appearing Real.  I dropped only a few things over from my long fear list that actually are happening in the here and now.